MY BOY AND MY TIME

I became a mother at 23 and I was very clear what to do: I had to be the big sister, my child's playmates. What could be so complicated? Half of my existence had been a child, I knew very well how it works. There was no way to be overcome by all that was happening to me. But ...

I wake up early, sometimes very early every day. I kiss the child, Victor, sleep and get away from him. I make coffee and retire in "my room", which is the place of work and dining room, and playground and all, but that's not important, the important thing is that they only have the privilege to see the sunrise window sun every morning.

Nothing but nothing in this world compares to the east. This is my moment! Write or read while the sun rises, I drink coffee in a silence and savor seconds, and I make for wonderful day schedule below.

Since Victor came into the world, time and space were severely diminished. In the early years, I stayed just stunned. Could not find the place anywhere, I could not rest (although sleeping more), I could not coordinate, and anything I can not do it properly. Everything was upside down, and it bothered me terribly.

I lived it until the night I had no sleep. Then I got up at 4 and I started the day. When he woke up the baby I was all done things food, cleaning, shower, hair arranged. This morning I discovered. Now almost two years.

Since then, every day I wake up in the dark and do ballet house. I learned every piece of creaky floors and a bypass. I know, without light, where everything I need. Challenge each morning is to make no noise. I do all kinds of tricks in the kitchen. Lighting the stove with the match, because the button is not so quiet. Put two towels on the table before you sit down for a coffee cup. I use a plastic spoon to not reproduce the sound that destroyed my childhood mornings: spoon in the cup - my father had an obsession - coffee must be stirred well, that is energetic and noisy. And after I'm done with the kitchen, doing ballet with a coffee mug in hand and retire to the light aquarium near a window.

And this is my time. It's the day when no one calls me, nobody asks me anything, no one calls me, nothing is urgent. I feel, somehow, outside. I feel like a prisoner who has the opportunity to leave the prison gate and out daily, but never leave. It always returns back after feeling a little freedom.

So are you. I found when I secretly enjoy the freedom of being single and not blow it again. If you miss, are troubled all day ... In the morning, I would like to connect to power and I would load the rest of the day. And even so it is!

In the mornings, we spend alone time for all. The more I find that I do not have time to miss. Dorm bed when Victor was born. Asleep on me (skin to skin in four years, yes). I like to keep it up and I think a little fear when they no longer want that (because I feel it coming), but in the morning I get tired ribs and lungs. And then run away from him and are so as to make me miss. He wakes up alone and I cry whispered "Mommy" and I ran to him in the next second. I hold her, I rub his hand, kiss him on the forehead and chin and neck, rub her feet and back to stop not only when he wakes up for good. And so begins our day ... And this is good!

Excuse me, can you expect me to write about a new adventure with Victor, but that's when I start writing in the morning ... It's my time!

To be loved!

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THE AWAKENING

This story can be seen as a confession. Or as another confession. Days on end, weeks and months, even years linked to the 1997 - 2007: I ate food in excess, far beyond my needs.

1. The food we ingest nutritional quality was low, with many empty calories and the majority. I was a gourmet, a glutton, a greedy, "a pig".

2. I consumed alcohol and often in excess. I was an alcoholic in that classic hardcore youth.

3. Do not practice sport constantly, did not move often, not even I used to walk 30 minutes daily. The times were often not even climb stairs to 1st-floor block. Use the lift. I was an ordinary sedentary.

4. I worked from 9 to 10 and about 14 to 16 hours minimum per day. I worked and Saturdays and many Sundays. I worked in Christian holidays. Yes, I did for years in a row. In most of his own initiative and without recognizing it. I was a fucking workaholic.

5. Do not read much, just junk sites, online news, and I forget that night television hoax, almost daily. I was an asshole.

6. buy all the crap earth. I bought clothes, objects, apartments, cars change them within a year, fashionable

furnishings, furniture, electronics, etc ... I have been a dozen consumerist - ordinary.

7. I would go to the city often. Spend lots of restaurants, terraces, clubs and bars. I meet anyone I suggested, rarely sitting at home on the weekend. Dade course almost any "ieşeli". I was a gregarious petty.

8. I was a rushed, a rushed, an impatient, a staunch proponent of "now! here! "immediately, instantly, immediately! All in!

In fact 8 + 1. There would be an excess work done in those years, but maybe I better stop here now. And I write separately only about that soon.

My Transformation from gourmet greedy, alcoholic classically ordinary sedentary, workaholic fucking, asshole, consumerist and a gregarious paltry dozen since the minimalist today, although still working, required time, many years, and, especially, more patience. Perhaps patience was miracle ingredient and the miracle that occurred! What made the difference at a time.

Food, alcohol, physical inactivity, the workalcoholism, consumerism, and gregariousness creates some terrible addictions. Let's give them is an act of courage and strength of character. Not easy at all. And then triggers a series of fierce fighting, heavy fantastically frightening. You really need help, support and above all patience.

Just one example: the dozens of pounds of fat accumulated in over 10 years of indolence not disappear like magic. No, you can not wipe with a sponge magic instantly, no you can not tell success as cats: GO! Do not go so easy pounds. It takes patience and a lot of work. 

Examples may continue. But the essence was said. What I want to convey is that the degradation of a man is not done overnight. And neither by luck instantly. It is the result of adding constant long-term healthy habits and wrong attitudes.

Also, the reverse way, the positive, there is clapping their hands. You have a lot of work, dedication and, most importantly, patience.

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UNLUCKY GUY

There was once a man really unhappy. All it went bad. Misfortune to brace against. Hut roof is collapsing, his garden was a jungle, had no friends, no wife. After becoming proud of his misfortune. He said everyone wanted to hear: "I am the most miserable man in the world!"

He began to wonder why God had so unlucky. Decided to find him and ask him.

Once he walked a year and a day in the woods, he came upon a clearing with a cave. Enter the cave; and when his eyes adjusted to the darkness, sees a wolf in a corner. It was in a sorry state. He was so weak that he could count his ribs and fur was dirty and torn. Surprising, but could not speak. Wolf asked:

- Who are you and where are you going?

The man replied:

- I am the most unfortunate man in the world and seek God, to ask why I'm so unlucky.

- When you meet him, you can ask him why they are so poorly?

- Come with me and ask yourself, 'said the man.

- I doubt I'd be capable of that. I feel too weak to travel. Ask for me.

The man nodded, and resumed his way.

May went another year and a day, then stopped to rest in the woods. A leaf fell on his crown, and he looked up. He saw a tree embittered, small and frail. Tree said:

- Who are you and where are you going?

The man replied:

- I am the most unfortunate man in the world and seek God, to ask why I'm so unlucky.

- When you meet him you can ask him why they are so why can not make me grow strong branches and a trunk thicker?

- Come with me and ask him yourself. replied the man.

- I can talk, but I can not move, see I'm trapped in the roots. Ask for me.

The man nodded, and resumed his way.

Another year and another day passed. Reached in a beautiful valley, green and there he came upon a small white house. The most beautiful woman he had ever seen sitting under a cherry tree near the door. She asked:

- Who are you and where are you going?

The man replied: "I am the most unfortunate man in the world and seek God, to ask why I'm so unlucky." She invites him in, we prepare a delicious meal, we hear the story and he said, "When will you see, you can ask him why they are single? "He was in agreement.

After a year and a day reached the end of the world, you find God.

- Who are you and where are you going ?, asked God.

The man replied:

- I am the most unfortunate man in the world and come to ask you why I'm so unlucky.

God listened patiently while the man still reeling long story that goes wrong in his life. When finished, God said:

- You're just unlucky, you're also wrong.

It was not the answer that the man was waiting for him, so asked for explanations.

- I created what I could. I offered endless possibilities and opportunities, I surrounded by beauty, the people that I know of places to explore and the discoveries that you make. You have to come back and stop to say you're the unlucky man in the world. Go to look for better luck where they are. Move!

Man silenced by these words turned away thoughtfully. God recalled.

- Do you have questions to ask me by others, is not it?

God made man gave him answers questions and then told him to leave.

The man came to the house with a beautiful woman in the green valley. She calls again, eager to find answers. The man told him:

- God told me that not only unfortunate but also stupid.

Then he said that God had said that it was only because he lived in an isolated place. He said:

- Tell them to open their eyes and ask her to marry the first man who will pass and they will live happily life.

She replied:

- You're the first person who has passed. Would take me in marriage?

The man said:

- No. I have to go because God told me to go find my fortune where it is.

And left leaving the beautiful woman.

When he reached the tree destroyed after informing him that God said it and ill not only unfortunate, he said:

- God gave me the answer for you. You can not grow healthy, because when you were a Berries, thieves treasure buried here under you. Lada block you and prevent you grow roots. If you find someone to dig up treasure and then you can increase the normal.

Tree said:

- Is a shovel, there by that tree. It is there since I can remember. You can pick and pull that trunk!

The man replied:

- No. I have to go because God told me to go find my fortune where it is found.

And left.

Finally, he reached the cave wolf.

- You ask? said the wolf.

- Yes. It seems that not only unfortunate but, in addition, are stupid.

The wolf raised his head and said:

- And to me what he said?

The man replied:

- The only reason is that you are hungry you are weak. He said the first man must eat badly that you'll encounter.

... And so the wolf ate him.

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